Night desires

This one is supposed to be read while listening to 12 to 12 from Sombr. Play then start reading. 


 I find myself surrounded by people. Loud music. 12 to 12 playing. I walk around looking for you, scanning every corner unconsciously waiting for something unlikely to happen. I am slightly drunk, the alcohol electrifies my body and heart. Your image comes to my mind every minute, your eyes gaze at me from inside my wildest dreams. I daydream in the dark while i start dancing. My body moves as if your hands were touching it. Suddenly our eyes meet. I am teleported to reality and every inch of my body starts burning. And as if i was hypnotized i walk towards you, you walk towards me. I feel like all the clocks  in the world just stopped and everyone is frozen and blurry. When you reach me it is final revelation, everything makes sense and the only beat I can hear is the one coming from my heart. We stare at each other for what it feels to be an eternity. Your hands touch my face and they feel like lava, a warm breeze on an autumn day. Your forehead touches mine and when our lips converge i forget all the worries and every doubt becomes a certainty. My arms slide over your chest until they are around your neck. Our tongues collide, I can taste your recently smoked cigarette, but instead of bothering me it just turns me on even more cause that’s you. The chorus hits and we are in the middle of a field, alone in an apocalyptic future, the last hope of the human species. We kiss as if the world is going to end at any minute and we are almost ready for it. The disco ball is our moon tonight and its lights on the wall and ceiling resembles the stars in the sky showing themselves to us. When the sensation is completed you pull your head back just enough to allow you to slide your lips through my cheek and reach my ear, where you whisper ‘let’s get out of here’. I stare at you for a couple of seconds before both of us grin at each other and I subtly nod my head to consent. It was too late anyway you are already turning your body and grabbing my hand to leave. It’s crowded and everybody is moving like atoms in a boiling kettle. We bump into them just wishing we were already alone. You spot the exit sign and rushes to get to it while holding me to never escape again. The door opens and two come inside, you hold the door and let me go first. On the outside where we can still hear the song playing like it's far far away whilst we walk a few steps and you just pull me against you with your hands on my waist. Your eyes deep in my eyes and your body pressuring me against a wall. I feel like I am in a trap, the safest place in the world. You kiss me again, but this time your hands start to wander over my belly. Your finger plays a dangerous game in and out of the waistband then proceed to the inside of my shirt. I let a quick moan escape and as if you enjoyed hearing it too much you just close the gap between us leaning forward. I feel the pressure of your touch against my left breast and from your hard length on my thigh. Our hearts having a race, we are out of breath but can’t take our lips from each other’s. You invite me to your place, say your car is not far. I say ‘are you sure’ ? You say yes. You say you need to run back inside for a moment, I say I’ll wait. You give me a last look and a holds me tight for a deep kiss to then release me and walk to the door. I barely recovered from the kiss in time to see your shadow disappearing from the alley. I smile to the skies and just like the last drop of consciousness falling from a bottle that has been mistaken by being empty, I run away. Not looking back, not stopping or hesitating, just as I pass the corner I see a bus stop and a random bus. I get in for the sake of vanishing, leaving the most adorable moment in a long time behind. I sit at the back of the vehicle and immediately start thinking about you and what the night we could have had  in a place you once swore you would never take me. I imagine every inch of your body, the smell of your hair and the texture of your hands roaming my naked skin. I bring the back of my hand to my nose to appreciate what is left of you there. I hear the engine starting and suddenly I am already somewhere else going home. The night ended a bit earlier but my mind was still lost in time, reminiscing about the last song. I watch the streets from the window, longing the next conspiracy of the universe to reunite us.